251. Whom to believe?

My desire-night says
God does not care for me.

My aspiration-sun says
God constantly cares for me.

Whom to believe?

I leave it up to God.
Lord, just once solve
My insoluble problem.

"Son, your desire needs aspiration;
Your aspiration needs realisation."
Sri Chinmoy, Cilj je postignut, Sri Chinmoy Centre, New York, 1974