Mi moramo da znamo odakle dolazi iskrenost. Ako je iz srca, onda će ta iskrenost biti potpomognuta prosvetljenošću duše. Ali ako dolazi iz uma, ta iskrenost nije pouzdana. Iskrenost uma je kao neki oportunista. Ona kaže: „Biću isken prema tebi ako mi učiniš veliku uslugu. Ali ako mi ne učiniš veliku uslugu, onda neću biti iskren“. Veoma često se mentalna iskrenost ponaša kao prvoklasni oportunista, a pravi krivac za to je naša vitalna energija. Kada naiđe vitalna energija, lako može da promeni ideje uma, čak i ako um ima dobre namere. Vitalna energija može da promeniti osećaj iskrenosti koji ima um.
Iskrenost sama po sebi nije dovoljna da bismo saznali da li udovoljavamo Bogu. Iskrenost je prvi korak. Drugi korak je odlučnost. Svakog dana treba da budemo iskreni prema sebi. Kad imamo pogrešne misli, možemo reći: „Imao sam pogrešne misli. Prepoznao sam ih i shvatio sam ih; priznajem da sam imao loše misli, nebožanske misli, nezdrave misli, neinspirativne misli. Zaista sam iskren“. Istina, mnogi ljudi nemaju nimalo iskrenosti. Stoga se mi ponašamo daleko bolje nego drugi, koji čak ni ne priznaju niti prepoznaju svoje loše misli. U našem slučaju mi smo bar spremni da priznamo da smo gajili pogrešne misli, vitalne misli. Ali tad mora da se pojavi i odlučnost. Ako nema odlučnosti, nećemo načiniti korak dalje.
How many people recognise their wrong actions? Again, how many of those are determined not to repeat those actions? Only if determination comes can you go one step forward. Again, even if determination comes today, you may not be successful in changing your wrong thoughts or wrong actions. How many times does a child fall down before he can walk properly? In the very beginning he is sincerely trying to stand up and walk, but his sincerity is not enough. He needs determination. Otherwise if he falls down, he will give up. Again and again he has to show his determination.
In your case, in everybody's case, sincerity is absolutely necessary. It is of paramount importance, but it is not enough. You need determination as well. And even when you have determination, God's Grace is also necessary. Otherwise, determination itself can come from the vital, not from the psychic being or the soul. Vital determination says, "By hook or by crook, tomorrow I will become a good person." That does not work to transform your actions.
The only thing that works is God's Grace. You have to pray to God prayerfully and tearfully: "Give me the determination to change my life. Then I will be able to please You always in Your own Way." If you get determination from prayer or meditation, then that is real determination. Otherwise, in an aggressive way if you are bringing some thoughts or ideas into your being, that determination is no determination. Real determination has to come from tearful prayers or very profound meditation. If determination comes from these, only then can it change your life. Otherwise, sincerity alone is not enough, although it is better than insincerity.From:Sri Chinmoy,Melodija mog srca, Agni Press, 1994
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